我為何會(huì)突然難過(guò)

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作者 / [美國(guó)] 瑪麗·奧利弗

翻譯 / 倪志娟

選自 /《去愛那可愛的事物》，雅眾文化

This Morning I Watched the Deer

This morning I watched the deer

with beautiful lips touching the tips

of the cranberries, setting their hooves down

in the dampness carelessly, isn’t it after all

the carpet of their house, their home, whose roof

is the sky?

Why, then, was I suddenly miserable?

Wll, this is nothing much.

This is the heaviness of the body watching the swallows

gliding just under that roof.

This is the wish that the deer would not lift their heads

and leap away, leaving me there alone.

This is the wish to touch their faces, their brown wrists –

to sing some sparking poem into

the folds of their ears.

then walk with them,

over the hills

and over the hills

and into the impossible trees.

Mary Oliver

鹿，是稍縱即逝的美的象征

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在生命中平凡的一天，人們總是難以期望會(huì)遇到鹿

，它們精靈一般的不可捉摸，讓我們不相信會(huì)有這樣的幸運(yùn)，這不啻于神性的一閃。

幾年前

，讀睡曾經(jīng)推過(guò)一首詩(shī)叫做《怎樣看見鹿》，薦詩(shī)人李小建解讀了這首詩(shī)，回答了“怎樣看見鹿”的問(wèn)題，答案是：除了等待，沒有別的辦法。

因此

，對(duì)于詩(shī)人瑪麗·奧利弗來(lái)說(shuō)，這種未經(jīng)等待的美，是何等的幸運(yùn)，幸運(yùn)到難以承受，“我為何會(huì)突然難過(guò)”，一種燕子低飛穿過(guò)屋檐的沉重感襲上心頭。擔(dān)心它的跑開，擔(dān)心它的消失，并且渴望更多的接觸，讓這時(shí)間變慢或者更加持久，就如浮士德所說(shuō)：美啊